Lua Astor

Dear Diary, The weekend of my First Communion had finally arrived. On one hand, I was incredibly excited about welcoming the Living Christ within me, the greatest honour a human could receive. On the other hand, I was terrified at the thought of confessing my sins to the priest. On Saturday, before our confessions, the priest instructed us to confess our gravest sins, not the small or trivial ones. He made it clear he didn’t want to hear about things like “killing an insect,

When I was a teen, a friend of mine, Willian Lucas, introduced me to Chaos Magic. He lent me several books, and I began where many chaos magicians eventually begin: with Austin Osman Spare. From there, I moved into Peter J. Carroll's Liber Null & Psychonaut, practising Liber MMM and gradually learning that magic was a technology of transformation. At that age, I did not yet possess the language to describe what was happening. I only knew that something had opened. Spare gave